Whirling Dervish

For someone who likes routine and security, I'm not getting much of either lately.  Every time a plan is made, or a piece falls into place, and I take a deep breath and sigh with relief; it all falls through and changes again.  I have no idea what is going on, and for the most part, I hate it.  Haha.  I know that God is in control, and I am trying super hard to trust him and know that his plans are best.  I know too that he is teaching me through this time, and he has something big in store.  So for now, I am trying to take it day by day and trust.  Why is that so hard?